well kendall, you left me for a band, i hope its AWESOME! just as awesome as spending the night with me would be. "with me" meaning on msn. ofcourse! and you left me an terrificly long comment the other day so i thought i'd do you the same favour. *massive grin*

so all your talk about cartwheels and life being bliss..it was pretty thought provoking. and i got to thinking...do you think that when people do cartwheels they get the same psychadelic, euphoric feeling as when they do drugs and thats why they love life afterwards..or MAYBE! do you think that people that do drugs do drugs because they cant do cartwheels?? i think im on a breakthrough here! ... i cant do cartwheels ... but if i could... i wonder how many i'd have to do before all the problems went away...hmmm.... OUCH! brain freeze!

oh and about the pirate thing.. i think i'd want to be Jane...but i want a big name... something that would scare and attract people at the same time..like Cut-throat Rose ... or ... Jane the Severe ... and i'd be cunning and provokative and i'd seduce and trick all of the other pirates of the seven seas into giving me their gold and jewels. and i'd sit up on my golden throne in my ship with red sails and a mahogony bow. so watch out, benny/barney/harry/but definitely not roger, when i come across you, prepare to surrender ... or else.

So i hope you LOVE that breaking benjamin song. that song wakes me up every morning and i get up singing. sure its a LITTLE bit (dont you love the way i write little in big letters?) angry/sad but atleast it makes me sound independant and avengful. so dont stuff with me cuz you'll get what you deserve. but you had no intentions of messing with me anyway, i knew that. =]

i dont think i'll make it to anywhere near as long as you did but you cant say i didnt try i suppose.

that story that you got me to read, i'm sure i've heard it before...its like a weird..different kind of karma i suppose..but a lovely story all the same =] i hope you liked lady lazarus. you know that lazarus was a biblical character. a begger that lived outside the house of a rich man. the richman never took any notice of him and so the richman burnt in hell while lazarus was given another chance. its a great story. i love it. but in her poem, sylvia makes it clear that she does not need god nor the devil's help to rise from the dead. i really do love that poem. she first triedto kill herself when she was 10, she tried to cut her throat, she had a scar for the rest of her life. anyway. no need to give you a WHOLE run down. i already did that for school. but i could always send you the analysis for it. or you could always look on the internet and pretty much get the run down yourself.

i want to cut my hair all of til there's only one or two inches. my modeling coordinator says i could do it, that i have a strong jaw line and my face could handle it...but i dont think i personally could handle it. i like my hair in my eyes, i can hide behind it. its wonderful. but because i wont cut it i have to grow it long. its odd and looks horrible and drives me crazy. and it's winter fashion coming up (because the fashion world is backwards, or american atleast) and i wont get any jobs because i have too small a frame so i have to wait til September next year before i can get any decent jobs or go for any castings but thats okay, my hair will be grown out by then and hopefully having a good cut.

so i keep talking about practical things but i think thats' because you and i dont really get time to talk about practical things. sure we talk about music and the things that we do (that is when we get on msn at the same time, lol) but we never really talk about things going on in our life. dont worry! lol. im definitely not going to start here. god. what a waste of your time to read all about my life. tsk tsk. *shakes head sadly* not worth it at all, believe me.

anywhoo. its been really cold lately but i cant wait for the hot days. its going to be 29 on the first day of school and i have to wear my ugly private school girl dress. its so gross. i'd rather wear the winter uniform all year and swelter in the heat than wear that baggy old sack. ugh. you're so lucky you dont have to worry about expensive uniforms. but i am much happier at tatachilla than i was at seaford.

i really want to come see you guys play. i need to give you your painting too. and i missed you last time so i think its only fair that i see you this time. its about time i go see a band anyway. havent done it for atleast a good 6months. would you seriously play my favourite song? i'd think of something with a good drum beat (and i'll run it by a drummer friend of mine so he can assure me that its a good one cuz my idea of hard is probably your idea of piss easy =] yay for the uncoordinated percentage of the world's population) just for you! yay.

my neck hurts from sitting here and there is absolutely NOBODY on msn. well..there's 7 people on my list but quite obviously they dont find interesting and i dont find them incredibly great either. *shrug* why do i bother?

but i'm sure you would have enjoyed reading this and im going to retire for the night. its only 10 on a saturday night. what is wrong with the world??

nuh night kendall tchocky francis. *waves*

ciao and i'll see you when the sun comes out...maybe...lol.

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